and a sound one doesn't know one has within them, until it comes out, and it can be caused from other losses (spouse, partner, lover, especially when without warning). "Imagine having open heart surgery performed with a jagged and rusted scalpel without a drop of anesthesia; further imagine mourning wails at frequencies and wavelengths that ripped holes in space-time that with harmonic dissonance resonated across all eleven or more dimensions of the universe, not just then, but at every point in time."