Beautifully written story. Thank you for writing it. I cried when I read your father's words to you on the phone. Please allow me to share with you the story of me and my friend who suicided in 2006. Our relationship continues to this day. My story, and those of others that I linked to therein, were written in the hopes that people start talking more and very openly about suicide so that awareness can lead to prevention. https://medium.com/the-pom/dizain-of-suicide-72bcde4dc8d8