Because all the knowledge that I need, all the life-lessons from prior lives, are there to be accessed. Everything I have intuited in the last nearly 11 months since my spiritual awakening is due not only to portals to the other side, but to portals between my conscious and subconscious minds. I choose to believe that my subconscious mind is where my soul and its knowledge resides--regardless of that view, we both believe in the power of the subconscious. Further answers to your question can be found in this story https://medium.com/grab-a-slice/i-am-avessel-with-17-042-previous-life-cycles-of-amassed-empathy-46df1b45261a?source=search_popover------------------------------------- and this one which I wrote because my best friend essentially asked me the same question you just did. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/positive-impact-of-my-soul-emergence-awakening-b18f78a9f226