Congratulations on your self awareness and courage to deal with BPD. I was in a toxic relationship with one who went ballistic when she found out that I decided she was one and manipulated her psychologist so much that even the latter gaslit me. I wrote this poem in KTHT about four years about being the other person in a relationship with someone with BPD. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/twisted-relationships-6c148e17f0d8