Have you read Clancy Martin's book, "How Not To Kill Yourself, A Portrait of the Suicidal Mind.?" I purchased it a couple of years ago after hearing him interviewed on NPR but have only read the introduction so far. I do that quite often. Still, between the interview and the but I read it inspired this writing: There’s No Shame in Contemplating Suicide https://medium.com/channspirations/theres-no-shame-in-contemplating-suicide-2e0ef101a900, subtitled "Philosopher and multiple attempt survivor Clancy Martin advises you can kill yourself if you want but you don’t have to do it today." His point is that gets people talking about it instead of ending the self talk by attempting or succeeding with suicide