Here are two essays that I think will resonate with you--the first is mine (one of many you would enjoy) and the second is by Jodie Helm (again one of many)--don't be concerned with her title--the subtitle is "The Archangels Say There’s No Such Thing:" https://medium.com/illumination-curated/marriage-of-philosophy-and-spirituality-742dc1d639f6

https://medium.com/@jodieshelm/the-one-true-religion-79c258caf93d