Hi MJ. Love this. I'm pretty sure i shared with you two months ago when Sitara finished her life review and that part of her soul work would be being my confidante and advisor--someone I can speak to for heavenly guidance but as if she were lying next to me on my pillow. I found out Thursday what her general soul / penance work is. She is on soul retrieval duty to help souls that died like she did not be earth bound and reach heaven. I will have to write a story soon explaining all this but for now I share with you something I wrote over a year ago when she had been earth bound for nearly a month after she died: "I decided yesterday late afternoon (April 15th, 2020) shortly after I woke that it would be selfish and dangerous to delay telling Lindsey what had to be said. [I know now that she was protected by deities from dire harm, but she was still vulnerable to losing her way because of those who live in the realm between Earth and Heaven]

Anne would not be available till much later. I decided to try and tell her alone. I tried to channel her. She could not understand me, but I did bring her into my body without Anne’s assistance, which I did not then know.

I don’t know if this was my imagination or not [nor does it matter], but I felt I had created a communication vortex. I found myself turning my shoulders from side to side-I felt air moving around me faster than I think it should have, so I did it faster and faster and then threw my arms to the heavens, all along I was concentrating on the message. I felt that I had expended quite a bit of energy.

When I did get on the phone with Anne and LC it was 6 or so hours later. Anne couldn’t find her in the realm, she said “I think she’s with you, did she leave last night? She had left I said; I then realized when I did my vortex move I had pulled her in. [I don’t partake in theatrics now]

I told her I love her so much and that I need her to trust me. I asked her if she was hearing many voices telling her different things [yes she said]. I told her do not listen to the voice that tells her how to be with me. That the way eventually to be with me is only to listen to the voice that gives her the path to her highest ascension. … I repeated the ascension advice many times. Then Anne said another entity had come in [I do not know if that was God or if God sent someone to retrieve her now that she was on the cusp of letting go of me] — that the entity was telling Lins that I spoke truth. And then I felt a whoosh out of my body and she was gone.

I had wept many hours before at the thought of parting. When I was delivering the advice and after, I felt calm, peace, almost joy.

PS: It's now 11:40 am (4/17) and I am sobbing and weeping.

LC had spent many nights curled up next to me or inside me since she passed. As before she passed, I was offering her love and comfort and advice and emotional support. Now that she was safely in Heaven, I felt alone and my mourning deepened. Somehow, I knew back then, before I realized that my journey required that I consult with my spirit guides, before I learned anything from them about Marcus, that Lindsey’s soul was strong and powerful and that soon it would be me being comforted by her." That is an excerpt from the streams of consciousness I wrote back then that eventually worked themselves into many of my essays. If you are interested, the full 20 minute compilation of the unedited streams of consciousness I published in BeYourself a few months ago. https://byrslf.co/awakening-to-integration-c4a6ed57bc32