I believe everything you have said about meditation, and make this comment to those, like me, for whom generally accepted methods of meditation are not achievable and so they will not feel that there is something wrong with them or get discouraged. "Generally accepted definitions of meditation and mindfulness fail me. I feared I would not achieve a connection to my soul and my god, and a stronger connection to my dearly-departed-heavenmate, without stillness. I lamented to my guides, asked for guidance, and they advised that with my INTP mind of split screens humming constantly, "meditation" does not suit me. What does is taking walks and more often than not I find that the output is as described by proponents of stillness like

Sylvia Clare

--what works for me is getting into the flow of my streams of subconsciousness without trying to still my mind nor body. So even though it teaches "just sitting," this resonated with me." The links to works of others are found in this short form of mine: https://medium.com/illumination/i-highlighted-so-much-because-i-identify-with-almost-everything-you-wrote-except-one-thing-which-d65dc78253d4

I also recommend this piece I read the other day from Joe Moody about an alternative form of meditation that would suit those like me with active minds that should not be quieted, https://medium.com/soul-mission/warning-this-may-cause-self-realization-a27cc0e0d018, in which I commented similar to the above and noted that I liked what Joe offered as it is really a method of spiritual cord cutting from negative attachments.