I don't want to be, and it would be "nice to have that special someone [here], next to [me] to engage in conversation, or to have a late-night snack and cozy up to" but I am also not alone even though there is no one physically present with me. https://medium.com/flowers-of-inspiration/12th-step-1st-step-conscious-contact-with-heaven-8854ae714389 The subtitle is "Making love with my heavenmate."