I experienced the Thor’s-Hammer-knee-capping-version of spiritual awakening in March when my lover died in the suddenly-tragically-without-any-warning-whatsoever-here-one-nanosecond-gone-the-next-manner. My journey is told in condensed form here: https://medium.com/mystic-minds/spiritual-awakening-followed-by-integration-and-alignment-9d4595be7dc6. Particularly on point with your beautiful article, I wrote elsewhere: "I started to think about the karmic nature of our love for each other and what is the purpose of a karmic relationship. It’s been suggested to me that the pain of losing Her was some sort of pay back for poor choices I made in this or a previous lifetime. I do not think so. The purpose of life is to learn. So, the pain is not payback; the pain is designed to help me learn. Looking at the loss in that light resonates. The phrase “that will teach you a lesson” is often said in a “you deserved that” manner. False. “Teach you a lesson” should be read literally and without a punishing connotation. The point is simply to learn. That is not dark. That is love.

So, what life-lessons can I discern? What am I supposed to take back to Heaven with me to have a better life review and ascend to my potential? An overarching theme that I see in all that has happened these last few months is: do not let conformity get in the way of growth; do not seek answers in what society expects; do not be afraid to live life in alignment with soul and nonconformity with community; to thine own self be true IF, IF, IF thine own self is not unethical or immoral." https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/self-portrait-2020-809cb17aa7c9