I get it. I feel it feels overwhelming to you and everything you just said may be correct. I also know there is only so much of it we can understand while we are here and most knowledge and understanding is veiled off from us regardless of what we are given access to.

Maybe next life you'll come back as a buddhist as they seem to be all about breaking the cycles of reincarnation. I'm kind of kidding.

Your soul will choose to come back or not. Or take a break and then resume. Not sure there's much point to letting any of that weigh on you now, but I get it.