I had a spiritual awakening in March, in the most painful manner possible--I have written about it extensively--you will look, find and read if you are meant to--usually I link--here, I shall not. Most of my PAE (pre-awakening era) friends, many of whom I love and have been friends with my entire adult life, are gone as far as I am concerned and I do not care--I don't fit in their life anymore and that's their choice--a couple of my friends, and my son, are able to read my writings and not think i'm crazy, which I am not, and I have a shit ton of AWEsome (after wakening era) friends, many of whom I have "met" by engaging here on Medium