I have experienced much that you discuss. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/eternal-soul-properly-defined-fe7a93e534f8

https://medium.com/illumination-curated/life-is-school-for-the-soul-9b081dbe8453

I look forward to further discourse and essays from you and I will definitely be featuring your work in my next collection. I "curate" spiritual stories as an editor of Illumination but unlike my co-editors I also feature works from outside the publication. I focus on spirituality because Illumination is not known as a home for spiritual stories but I find some gems. This short form contains the links to all the collections I have compiled. https://medium.com/illumination/i-feature-from-time-to-time-on-an-irregular-schedule-stories-published-in-the-various-outlets-of-703721507c51