I have long understood the no punishment and yet the regret, intense regret. I struggle with seeing the second part of the highlight--the cutting life short. My understanding is that free will cannot create an exit earlier than a departure date in the itinerary (my latest word for soul contract/lesson plan/improv script.) Thus, I've written in my suicide attempt prevention essays that a suicide attempt won't succeed if not at an exit date, and thus being coldly rational, suicide is pointless.