I know you are experiencing loss. You mentioned that to me recently and the other day you asked me if I ever write about loss. I answered that I have written many essays and poems that touch upon my losses, but I didn't give links or quotes, figuring you would ask or if you were meant to read them, you would be guided to them. Then in my comments yesterday I decided to share to amplify my thoughts for you and others.

I understand the living in a simulation perspective. I think of it often. I try to stay away from referring to our improv-scripted lifecycles as simulations because, at the same time, they are very real, both for the human and the soul, and talking about life as a simulation is very diminishing/dismissive of people and their very real feelings and experiences.

Sometimes it is a great coping perspective though. In a few of my stories, I recount something shocking that a borderline personality girlfriend once did to me that affected not only me but others. The first time I told the story publically was not long after it happened when I was the speaker at an AA meeting. When I told the story the entire room gasped in shock. I then said it's ok. I've lived 47 years and even if I live another 47 it is so infinitesimal compared to my soul’s existence.