I relate.

“Religion cannot stand Spirituality. It cannot abide it. For Spirituality may bring you to a different conclusion than a particular religion—and this no known religion can tolerate. Religion encourages you to explore the thoughts of others and accept them as your own. Spirituality invites you to toss away the thoughts of others and come up with your own.”

― Neale Donald Walsch, The Complete Conversations with God

https://medium.com/technical-excellence/i-do-not-believe-that-any-god-desires-worship-39268e70d0b8

This next link is to one o fthe very first stories that found me on Medium

https://medium.com/@leahcastellon/which-religion-is-right-f0bd30e714a2