I relate to this--I identify with this. I gave my kids this advice:
"if I had looked within and charted my own course rather than just follow the standard, go to college, go to grad school, get a good job path without giving much thought to what the proper career choice for me. Becoming a lawyer seemed to fit; I realized at about 20 that law fit better than business, and law school and a few years as a lawyer was in all events a good choice and maybe even the right choice up to a point, but it is not the correct-sized round hole for my round peg.
You have probably heard, “try as you might, you cannot fit a square peg into a round hole.” Not heard is that a round peg will fit a square hole, but not well. If the diameter of the circle is just a smidge smaller than the sides of the square, it will fit ok but there will be lots of unfilled space — unfulfillment. That’s ok. Maybe. But if the diameter is any smaller than that, it will endlessly slide around and get bruised banging into the walls of the square. That is me. I have clues to what my calling is and it is never too late to remake oneself and I shall succeed.
The important thing that I can impart to you now is to learn to look within. You already know every answer you need in life. Be patient, sit with decisions until they not only seem right but feel right. Trust your gut. There is a difference between doubts in your head and feelings in your gut. There is a difference between being nervous in your gut and something really not feeling right in your gut. You will need to discern for yourself how to discern those differences; everybody is different. I can help you when you are trying to tell the difference if you come to me for help. I can guide you but the ultimate decision would have to be yours. It’s fine to make mistakes. I just hope you recognize mistakes way earlier than I have."
one will never achieve success if they follow a path ill-suited for one’s essential nature
