i wonder if the compounding is the only reason it was rough--I thought it was a cake walk--ridiculous grade curve--had i found it rough I would have been better off--learning school always bcame very easy for me--so easy that learning life lessons took baseball bats to the head, until now, now it took the cataclysm of my lovers sudden passing at a young age to awaken my soul so now I don't have to be smashed again, and as she, my karmic lover here, is my soul partner in the realms, she is with me always even now