I wrote this tanka and explainer last March about grieving over soulmates:

"Deaths’ facts differ still

Will drives lives’ paths to deaths’ dates

Love burns — searing pain

Deepest loss most room for gain

Endless pain, Light fills the drain"

"The first two lines of yesterday’s poem represent my belief in the predestination of the date of death, but that our paths to death, how we lead our lives, we do very much determine through the exercise of free will. The third line evokes the excruciating pain felt by the soulmate left behind. I almost ended there with that haiku. Yet, I did not want the poem to leave the reader with the dark feeling of hopelessness. So, I added a turn to Light — the last two lines paint a silver lining. While nary a day shall pass that I will not mourn the sudden and tragic loss of my 36.5-year-old lover, my infinitely large pain pockets will never empty, meaning as they drain, they contain space for an infinite amount of Light to shine." https://medium.com/illumination-curated/the-illusion-of-death-84c4c250df80

Now that your friend is in heaven, he is completely healthy as Jodie Helm wrote about recently https://jodieshelm.medium.com/death-is-hard-for-the-living-6f8c67667d16

and I'm sure you will be hearing from him, probably while you are in meditation, and if not, via some other medium for a channeled message, when the time is right https://medium.com/illumination/synchronized-energies-f3dc8d520f38