In so many ways, I know you could have written this piece yourself, in other words, Jodie's wisdom gained from AAs and perhaps retained or released by your soul to your present animus from countless prior lifetime. Self awareness is the precursor to change. One cannot change without identifying where one is and a potential problem that one wants to change. I would love to see you, Jodie, step out of dependence on the AAs and more often speak fully in your own voice. Yes, you have the intros and the conclusions, but you can write more often just from you trusting that you present what you have learned or intuit rather than the crutch of "I asked the AAs and this is how they answered." Stand on your own soap box from time to time and present the AA's views for difficult topics.