Marcus aka Gregory Maidman
2 min readSep 20, 2022

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It is true and no, it would not alleviate the suffering, the grief. Everyone would know that the "dead" are well but they would still be missed. I literally sense the presence of my lover who died in March 2020 every day (I sense the energy signature of her soul-- my brain processes it as a gentle tinitus like sound but it's not being sensed by my ears) and I talk to her soul all the time but I still miss and grieve the human. Here are two poems I wrote around the first anniversary of her passing.

1) A single line tanka rather than the usually seen 5/7/5/7/7

Exit-date illusion souls do not dissipate still leaving all-too-real for somnambulists yet waking won’t salve grieving hearts;

2) the usual form of tanka

Deaths’ facts differ still
Will drives lives’ paths to deaths’ dates
Love burns — searing pain
Deepest loss most room for gain
Endless pain, Light fills the drain

My SEO description of the first was: Tanka conveys that death, not life, is an illusion, but from a relativistic standpoint is very real in the eyes of unawakened souls in this life cycle

The second I have described thusly: The first two lines of yesterday’s poem represent my belief in the predestination of the date of death, but that our paths to death, how we lead our lives, we do very much determine through the exercise of free will. The third line evokes the excruciating pain felt by the soulmate left behind. I almost ended there with that haiku. Yet, I did not want the poem to leave the reader with the dark feeling of hopelessness. So, I added a turn to Light — the last two lines paint a silver lining. While nary a day shall pass that I will not mourn the sudden and tragic loss of my 36.5-year-old lover, my infinitely large pain pockets will never empty, meaning as they drain, they contain space for an infinite amount of Light to shine.

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Marcus aka Gregory Maidman
Marcus aka Gregory Maidman

Written by Marcus aka Gregory Maidman

Living 17,043rd human life. I am Marcus (universal name) or you may call me Greg; a deep thinker; an explorer of ideas and the mind.

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