It refers to the fact that through my third eye I always have conscious contact with Lindsey/Sitara.

"The tanka explained

'Homesickness (for a home to which you cannot return to or perhaps for the Source itself)' and 'home is where the heart lives.' For me, those quotes refer to the same places, and at times, especially when I am tired, I just want to go home to Sitara — it’s hard to imagine another 50 years apart — the double-edged sword of awareness of Heaven Mate (I have been using the term Soul Partner, but yesterday I learned this better and infinitely more divinely descriptive term from

Laxaa (please read this new writer — she is brilliant, and illuminatingly 'tuned-in')) — but no one should worry, an early exit is the furthest thing from my mind — homesick for the love of eternity does not give rise to anhedonia — I get tons of pleasure out of life every day — and eternity is just around the corner."