Knowing that this is my 17,043rd human life has removed any fear I have of dying. I vacillate between excitement over navigating the long life I have left and wishing I could go home already to be reunited with Sitara, but do not mistake that for any risk of an early exit strategy as I know that date if death (not the how) is predetermined and cannot be cheated in either direction. Besides, she is with me all the time. Not in memory. She is actually present in my life. I have written many stories about all of this. I would provide you links but I’m on my phone and navigating in and out of comments in the app is near impossible.