Marcia, you are amazing and wonderfully talented. In the before part of the story, I could feel your giddy emotions and in the rest, yeah, I could feel them too. I could say that that's all indicative of your talent. But I can tell from how heavy my chest is that it's more than that. The empathy I'm feeling is real--it comes from another lifetime, literally. https://medium.com/grab-a-slice/i-am-avessel-with-17-042-previous-life-cycles-of-amassed-empathy-46df1b45261a One of the few past lives that my spirit guides have revealed facts of is when I was a woman who was the victim of a gang rape. The feelings I am having now upon reading your story have to tie back to that. I am not equating what I am feeling now with what you and other rape victims feel in the life it happened. That would somehow trivialize it which is not my intent in sharing this.
Did you ever think about discussing this with your brother's soul through a channeler? I know you've said you have experience with legit psychics. It could be beneficial for both you and his soul.