My son gets upset with me at times, thinking I don't care about this life enough, or enough about what affects him and his sister, thinking I only care about the afterlife, which of course isn't true on many levels, including that until my soul decides to retire, there is no afterlife, just lots of between lives. https://medium.com/illumination-curated/my-understanding-of-god-life-death-and-the-between-lives-we-experience-with-our-many-soulmates-af641080747f, subtitled "The conceptual evolution I gained from a personal understanding of God through my spiritually awakened experiences outside of any religion — take what you will and leave the rest"

That essay comports with many of your channelings