My soul literally made it so I could not stand up for myself, until I got the message and figured out how to. You probably recall my story about not being able to stand long without a cane for many years, which turned out to be psychosomatic, which I didn't realize until after the brain surgery was ineffective. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/my-personal-experience-with-idiopathic-truncal-dystonia-dd10f0a13a25