Nothing wrong with tears. Tears have many sources and many are not painful.
Plus this from me:
"Meredith explained that the conflict was not between my conscious and subconscious, but between my mind and my soul. Meredith’s conception of God, or the Great All, and how we and our souls fit in, is that when our souls leave the Great All to take human form we contract with the universe to experience certain painful things on Earth that are not spiritual so we can learn what is spiritual (love, kindness, compassion, charity, etc.). At the end of our conversation I was crying.
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In Delray I would wake before dawn and go running barefoot on the beach with the moon, Venus and Orion keeping me company, feeling connected to the universe. Realization of connection to the universe — that is why I cried with Meredith."
That's from my https://medium.com/promptly-written/lets-talk-about-the-egotistical-human-b-l-sh-t-about-enlightenment-7091502e9fe3
