Please do not feel shame; shame is self-loathing and unproductive; not even regret, as I define it, because it seems you have manifested growth from your realizations of mistakes. https://soulutions17043.medium.com/not-shame-shame-is-self-loathing-and-unproductive-not-even-regret-as-i-define-it-because-it-13dded7cebc