Please don't feel obligated to read the story I will link here which someone may want or need to. If there is one primary reason I write, some soul contract karmic reason, it would be suicide attempt prevention and awareness. Early in my Medium writing, I wrote an essay with the title Maybe I Will Save One Life, Or Many. It was geared towards both suicide prevention and lifting guilt off of those left behind who have been conditioned to blame themselves. Six months later with my thinking and views refined, I wrote my opus (meaning a 17 minute read) on the matters, https://medium.com/illumination/dizain-of-suicide-72bcde4dc8d8 starting with this poem:

We Are Only As Sick As Our Secrets

Suicide provides no relief at all

On ledge imagining end to my pain

Pavement streaming toward me will not end fall

Just before break solution becomes plain

My penance to help others to refrain

Thought my loved ones better off without me

Truth’s too likely they’ll header into sea

Had I known that death cannot be cheated

Baring deep secrets would cure malady

Death would not have left loved ones defeated