PS: My most read, clapped, highlighted, commented story is this that is forever pinned high in my profile, about my friend's 2006 suicide, my 2012 conversation with his soul, and how that helped me through a deep episodic depression in 2013. I just remembered that you saw me touch on it in my 2013 self-portrait. I built a full essay around that and unpacking this poem that I wrote to lead off the essay https://medium.com/illumination/dizain-of-suicide-72bcde4dc8d8:

"We Are Only As Sick As Our Secrets"

Suicide provides no relief at all

On ledge imagining end to my pain

Pavement streaming toward me will not end fall

Just before break solution becomes plain

My penance to help others to refrain

Thought my loved ones better off without me

Truth’s too likely they’ll header into sea

Had I known that death cannot be cheated

Baring deep secrets would cure malady

Death would not have left loved ones defeated