"Religions have been designed to be believed and thus construct God as a deliverer of human wants if we do as we are told, which God is not. So people either blindly believe in God because the lie of what God is is believable, or reject God because the God defined by religions cannot co-exist with the reality that most people do not get what they want, or are not actually happy, and a world full of seemingly senseless tragedy and really bad things happening to good people.

So my view, which I shall deliver as a truth but the fact is it would be hubris for me to proclaim that I can actually understand the Universe: “God” does not care anything about money, politics, war, famine, or even who lives or dies, and to the extent God affects any such outcomes it is only to keep things from going too far off the improv-script. Nor do the Gods give a hoot about religions, as religions arise from the human-need to construct a controlling mechanism."

That's from an early post of mine almost four years ago, which actually had a positive message for those willing to see it: https://medium.com/illumination/why-is-it-so-easy-for-people-to-believe-the-most-obvious-lies-yet-require-proof-of-god-339a2a07cc4f

I repeated it somewhat altered a few times, most recently in my only ever boosted story, which I doubt would be boosted today, as they seem to frown on any story about religion or god as too controversial. https://medium.com/illumination-curated/lets-talk-about-atheists-and-bible-beating-believers-in-the-god-of-abraham-fe139f4833f3 My takeaway was "I hope any member of any religion who reads my story may take away that you can form your own understanding of God and possibly stay a member of your religion — only fundamentalists would care that you’ve formed your alternate view.

I hope any atheist reading this will take away that there is an alternative, probably several alternatives, to believing in nothing without offending logic and critical thinking and without implicating superstition, but you can forget about proof. That does not mean taking it on faith. You can intuit a belief."

If lost in all that, I believe in god as I understand that creative power.