Reminds me of a poem I wrote in August 2021--I wasn't sure exactly when but your note sent me looking for it. "The Path Most Traveled, Leave it before you end up where you started" https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/the-path-most-traveled-65cf48ee1f17 It's an imayo poem about learning to play the tape forward and not allowing pleasure to cause us to forget pain