Seems to me her manipulations are still in your head. Why are you blaming yourself. She knew exactly what she was doing. She could have reached back out to you. She could have talked it through with you even on that day, as you are talking it through here now, and possibly you two would have worked it out.

And all those women she published, how do you know how they feel? You're only afforded a glimpse at the surface from orchestrated events. Maybe beneath that facade, they feel used and wish they had done what you did.

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And, they're not a delicious member of my She's the Bomb Squad!!!