Thank you for reading and for taking the time to leave this thoughtful and interesting response. I've never explored enneagrams. Perhaps I will. Regarding the paradox you mention, it might just be something to accept rather than try to solve. Check out my https://medium.com/channspirations/lifes-contradictions-and-paradoxes-8c99c537a3c0 and my https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/the-human-spirit-duality-e456c0729e99