Thank you for this well-articulated and thoughtful piece. Allow me to share with you my very aligned views: https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/baruch-hashem-salaam-alaikum-et-al-d6ee7fc7aaec. I highly recommend Gavin Sher's story linked in mine. Here is another of mine you may enjoy and I highly recommend Laxaa's article linked therein. https://medium.com/technical-excellence/i-do-not-believe-that-any-god-desires-worship-39268e70d0b8