Thank you Kira Sunrise
"I decided yesterday late afternoon (April 15th [2020]) shortly after I woke that it would be selfish and dangerous to delay telling Lindsey what had to be said. [I know now that she was protected by deities from dire harm, but she was still vulnerable to losing her way because of those who live in the realm between Earth and Heaven]
Anne [my channeler] would not be available till much later. I decided to try and tell her alone. I tried to channel her. She could not understand me, but I did bring her into my body without Anne’s assistance, which I did not then know.
I don’t know if this was my imagination or not (nor does it matter), but I felt I had created a communication vortex. I found myself turning my shoulders from side to side-I felt air moving around me faster than I think it should have, so I did it faster and faster and then threw my arms to the heavens, all along I was concentrating on the message. I felt that I had expended quite a bit of energy.
When I did get on the phone with Anne and LC it was 6 or so hours later. Anne couldn’t find her in the realm, she said “I think she’s with you, did she leave last night? She had left I said; I then realized when I did my vortex move I had pulled her in. (I don’t partake in theatrics now)
I told her I love her so much and that I need her to trust me. I asked her if she was hearing many voices telling her different things (yes, she said). I told her do not listen to the voice that tells her how to be with me. That the way eventually to be with me is only to listen to the voice that gives her the path to her highest ascension. … I repeated the ascension advice many times. Then Anne said another entity had come in (I do not know if that was God or if God sent someone to retrieve her now that she was on the cusp of letting go of me) — that the entity was telling Lins that I spoke truth. And then I felt a whoosh out of my body and she was gone.
I had wept many hours before at the thought of parting. When I was delivering the advice and after, I felt calm, peace, almost joy.
PS: It's now 11:40 am (4/17) and I am sobbing and weeping.
LC had spent many nights curled up next to me or inside me since she passed. As before she passed, I was offering her love and comfort and advice and emotional support. Now that she was safely in Heaven, I felt alone and my mourning deepened. Somehow, I knew back then, before I realized that my journey required that I consult with my spirit guides, before I learned anything from them about Marcus, that Lindsey’s soul was strong and powerful and that soon it would be me being comforted by her. [Kira, I am crying now as I reread this]
I would not be painting now, and probably not for a long time yet, if it were not for her Love, appreciation, and devotion during these past 4+ weeks, and were it not for her power and wisdom, as I have heretofore only summarily stated, she inspired the paradigm shift I needed to Integrate. I’ll just paint one mindscape here (ah maybe two) and then I can go to bed having shed the anger at Liz [my ex wife who yelled at me for being in love with a dead girl] so I can lay down enveloped again by LinStara’s and my eternal Love for each other. Actually, I’m too tired to do justice to those mindscapes. So, I will simply say what Anne said to me a few weeks ago regarding LinStara and me: 'know that you are deeply loved by a beautiful soul.' Ahhh. Now I’m gonna lay down with that Love in my heart and fall asleep with this beautiful song in my ears. I’ll resume painting when I’m recharged. Please listen to this song as well. https://youtu.be/gRm4m4BP4t0 "
If you have the patience for a 20 minute streams of consciousness read, that quote is from here: https://byrslf.co/awakening-to-integration-c4a6ed57bc32
