That’s when the acronym “fucked up, insecure, neurotic and emotional" applies. Overall, this is a great piece. I have written much about my grief. It instantly triggered by spiritual awakening 3/19/20. I know I will grieve forever and that infinite grief means every day infinite room for light is created as my pain pockets drain. What I didn’t anticipate is the intensity that the grief would gain this long after her return home.