The silver lining is her death triggered my instantaneous spiritual awakening, and we have been engaged in a human - spirit relationship ever since, and I know that her soul and my soul are eternal soul partners, always playing some role in each other's incarnations, and to top it off, I have now found the woman that everyone said does not exist--one that is not jealous of or threatened by Sitara's ever presence in my life. https://medium.com/flowers-of-inspiration/12th-step-1st-step-conscious-contact-with-heaven-8854ae714389 that's the story of our ongoing relationship. The new woman I speak of his Libby, the subject of all my recent love poems