The universe placed you two in the spot and you came through. Well done. I understand the emotions you felt as I felt them after my friend's suicide on his second attempt about 20 years ago. The guilt I felt about not saving him was lifted several years later when I reached out to his soul through a psychic. Plus what he said to me in that conversation helped save my life the following year. That's all here if you're interested: https://medium.com/illumination/dizain-of-suicide-72bcde4dc8d8