These lines and the other lines I highlighted, "Death is a scream to the sky. An endless howl!" "Life was a blink taken away from a storm..." "And how this man was shaken deep inside--the loss just broke him," all speak to my experience with Lindsey's death, including:

"The wailing on the street was a sound that I did not know I could, nor how to, produce. It has emanated from only a few times since. It cannot be purposely replicated. It is the sound of my soul crying out in pain. No, crying does not begin to describe it; it is the sound of unrestrained grief without any concern about the spectacle that I was for onlookers for an hour or more."

And yes, as you wrote the "ford to the beyond..."

"At that moment, I intuitively knew that I possessed a soul. I had believed it before — now I owned it!

I experienced an irreversible spiritual awakening. The pain was amplified way beyond that which even someone who has experienced the here-one-second-gone-the-next can imagine because with awakening came the innate understanding that I had just lost someone after only 10 months in this life cycle that I have been in love with for all of eternity."