This also hit me. It may be time soon to write the story I haven't wanted to write. I've alluded to my lover's secrets contributing to her death, including one that she even kept from me. This is what I've divulged so far. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/a-defiant-lovestory-89d431ba5bf9 The secret I learned afterward might be obvious to anyone reading this comment. I'll need to have one or more conversations with her soul first though. This is a topic her soul avoided. I love her so much.