Well done, Henya. Step 10: “Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.” And don't beat yourself up over this departure from how you would like to act. We all let our emotions get the best of us from time to time and with what you've been going through, it's more than understandable and completely forgivable and I hope you have already forgiven yourself.

Some of the 12 steps (4, 5, 8, 9, and 10) should be practiced by everyone. You've actually read my essay on that. If anyone else wants to, it's the second half of this one https://medium.com/illumination/spirituality-redefined-ff45cb53eaf2