You have my deepest condolences. While Andrew's suicide was the focus of the story, I mentioned towards the end that I lost my lover to an accidental OD last year. I will share one or two of my many stories that focuses on Lindsey, whom I interchangeably call Sitara, as that is what I learned soon after is her soul's name, and she is always with me, literally, and that made my soldiering onward possible until it was no longer a chore, and she remains with me. I hope the stories help you. Keep in touch. I am here to help. That is why I write. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/self-portrait-2020-809cb17aa7c9