I get it but PLEASE know that nothing you didn't do or did affected her day to die. My views on this are somewhat unique but I know them as truths. Part of my dharma is to write with an eye toward suicide attempt prevention and convincing those that feel responsible not to and now I see that my being drawn into your piece is also about me absolving anyone who feels any kind of guilt over the fact of a death. Manner of death is different than death. My views on much of this are summed up here: https://marcus17043.medium.com/my-takeaways-from-news-that-alec-baldwin-charged-with-involuntary-manslaughter-4381d31637

Regarding premonitions, that is something I only recently had to grapple with as I discussed here: https://marcus17043.medium.com/todays-energy-gateway-2f98196a9f8b