I wrote this love poem during your hiatus: https://marcus17043.medium.com/a-love-poem-c5b0bff9d45f

It seems you haven't seen this piece from 2 years ago. You are never alone. Just open yourself up to her presence. https://medium.com/flowers-of-inspiration/12th-step-1st-step-conscious-contact-with-heaven-8854ae714389

Let me introduce you to Anne. She'll channel your beloved and you will never feel alone again.